Is that a baby bump, or do I just have to poop?
I’m in that weird stage right now where I could pass for either being pregnant, or just really bloated after scarfing down a burrito and drinking a beer. I’m not going to sugar coat this, it’s kind of a shitty stage. If anyone mentions my growing belly, there’s a 50/50 chance that I’ll get upset and internalize it as criticism, or that I’ll beam proudly, wishing the bump was bigger. Of course the hormones don’t help with any of this.
So how do I deal with it?
First of all, I need to preface this by saying that these “negative” comments are all in my head because I know that my friends and family are intending to be kind and caring. I’m turning every perceived negative comment into a cheer for my baby. If someone comments on my belly and I happen to be in a low mood about my body and the very last thing I want to do is smile and agree that, why yes, indeed, I AM slowly getting huge, I flip it around and think, keep growing baby, you’re getting bigger and stronger every day!
I’m also focusing on how I dress to make myself feel beautiful. I know that beauty is on the inside, and don’t get me wrong, I’m the last person to judge someone’s outfit choice or criticize her for not wearing make-up, but as one of my best friends always says, “Look good, feel good!” So, I dress myself in outfits that I think (and hope!) I look good in. Generally this includes a tight pair of (maternity) jeans or leggings, either a tight tank with a button down or sweater over top, or a loose, flowy top, along with a scarf. These days I’ve been putting extra care into my skin routine, and throwing a few more layers of mascara on my lashes before I leave the house. I’ve also reverted back to smiling at myself in the mirror and telling myself that I am beautiful. This always feels a little fake at first, but it’s worked for me in the past when I’ve had to rebuild my self esteem, so I’m a serious advocate of it.
I’m also doing my best to stop dwelling on what feels like this slow process of growing a baby. It’s been 17 weeks and my bump is barely showing in clothes. I’m eager to be obviously pregnant looking. This stage of pregnancy is just weird. You want to show off your belly, but unless you’re totally undressed, or wearing particularly tight clothing, well there’s nothing really to show!
Fellow moms, and moms-to-be, how did you handle this stage of pregnancy?
If you’d like to see how much my bump has grown, check out my Facebook page. Be sure to follow it as I’ll be sharing useful links, yummy recipes, and posting a ton more photos!