Two years of motherhood

Two years of motherhood

My baby turned two. I have to say, the transition from one to two has been much smoother than zero to one. We've got a good groove. We've had ups and downs, but all in all, I have felt relatively in control and (more or less) well composed. I no longer assume that one bad [...]

Let’s talk about sex, baby!

Let’s talk about sex, baby!

Last Thursday evening, after a long, drawn out ultrasound due to my baby sleeping through the entire thing, despite my greatest efforts to wake her up, I found out I am carrying a daughter. When the ultrasound technician scanned between her legs and asked what I see, all I could respond with was, "Honestly? Blobs... [...]

Sappy Post

Sappy Post

I've been feeling extremely sentimental lately, and it's taken me a while to really organize my thoughts enough to even begin processing my feelings through writing. Bear with me through the sap that is about to unfold. As of recently, I've become painfully aware of how limited my one on one time is with my [...]

Comparing First Trimesters

It's so interesting being pregnant again! The first time around everything was so new. Every little change brought on either excitement or fear or something in between. This experience has been so vastly different from my first. I've been contemplating this since about halfway through my first trimester. And so it's time to summarize the [...]

Finding Out I Was Pregnant

Finding Out I Was Pregnant

I told myself I would wait until 12 days post ovulation so as to not be disappointed with the very real possibility of a false negative. After all, at this point, I was just pleasantly surprised to find out I'm ovulating. The last time I bled was before I conceived Sawyer back in August 2016. [...]

Feeling the Future

Feeling the Future

It has taken me to my early thirties to realize that I don't know what I'm doing with my life outside of being a mother. I look around and I see friends excelling in their careers, several years and promotions in, with a financially stable future ahead. And then I look at myself, working a [...]

Loneliness & Friendships

Loneliness & Friendships

The ineffable moments of pure love, joy, pride, and awe that come with motherhood come with dark moments. Moments that people don't like to talk or hear about, and until you're in it, you don't really understand what it means to be in those shadows. I'm talking about isolation and loneliness.   The isolation sets in [...]